~JoJoCookie-Chan

Where have I been?! Home mainly. I'm officially back at school now taking one last class for my last summer session. And if all goes well I will then be able to graduate. I've currently been in the process of moving things around. Disposing of old stuff, donating truckloads of things to charities, bringing home 4 years of occumulated memories, and most of all readjusting to life at home again. Just being back home for a month was already such a different experience. Living at college and taking on all responsibilities has shown me how capable I am of caring for myself. There's so much I can do now that I never had the chance to try before, even simple things like writing checks and ordering take-out. Back home I feel almost caged, but I've come to notice some more important things, like what is my role in the family now. I'm not a child anymore, but let's face it who really ever grows up? I'm now in a position where I have the power to care for my family, to watchover their needs and to help them, rather than standing back and being the helpless one. Everyone is getting older and sometimes it feels like time is slipping away. I even worry at times that I get too narrowminded and forget to appreciate each moment I have with those I care about. My eyes have really opened about my relationship with my family, friends, and those I no longer care to associate with. It's been a rather tumultuous month on my emotions, and I admit I had a bit of a breakdown, well actually make that two, but now that my head's clear I feel more ready than ever to continue pushing forward. I still don't exactly know what to do next, get a job, an internship, take a break, travel abroad, do some soulsearching, maybe even fall in love, but whatever comes my way I know I'm ready for some change, hopefully for the better. While all these changes have been happening I obviously haven't been posting anything. Sad truth is I haven't been drawing anything, at all. There's just too much going on for me to take a time out and sit down to do something creative and free of thought. Though that's probably just what I need right now. On a positive note I plan to at least do some drawing practices to get myself back into gear. I feel very rusty and unable even to hold a pencil properly. Yet my mind will never cease coming up with ideas. As with everything happning in my life right now, I'll just have to wait and see how things pan out. I officially leave campus by mid-September, so if you don't here from me during these next 2 months fret not, for I'm am quite alright. In fact I've never been better.

I've been clubbin...